Hello friends! Today is my 33rd birthday! I can hardly believe it! When I was in my late twenties, I thought that there couldn’t possibly be anything more annoying than turning 30. But then before I knew it, time had its way, and on the afternoon of my 30th birthday I had an epiphany (I was driving to spend the day with my family—it was such a profound moment for me that I can close my eyes and visualize exactly where I was on the road down to the last detail). I had survived my 20s and was finally going to get to leave it behind! Hooray!
Looking back at my twenties right then, I realized that most of it had been pretty darn miserable to almost unbearable. But there on the first day of my thirtieth year I was finally in an amazing place with my life. I had dug myself out of a depression that I honestly never thought I would make it through, I had not only survived one of the darkest times of my life, but my daughter and I were thriving, and the uncertainty that pervaded my 20s was practically nonexistent. My twenties had nearly taken everything out of me, but I fought incredibly hard to make it to that day…the day when I would be free from so much struggle. And there on my 30th birthday I realized that I had made it!!!
Even though giving myself credit is a challenge for me (why is it so hard for us to be nice to ourselves anyhow), I can honestly look back at the last few years of my thirties and say that I’m proud of myself for how far I’ve come. I also have so much gratitude for the love and support of my family and friends…and you guys too! You’ve all helped me to get to this place (even if you didn’t know it). I feel so incredibly lucky that words can never really express it. But thank you!
P.S. It’s a tradition of mine to give flowers to my Mom on my birthday (a small thank you for having me), but with my sister’s wedding only a few days away I won’t get to see her (she’s crazy busy trying to get everything ready). So Mom, I bought these peonies (your favorite) just for you and photographed them so you can enjoy them across the miles. Thank you for all the sacrifices you made for me as a young mom. Every year my admiration and appreciation for you grows more and more. I love you so much! Thank you for having me! xoxox